It's funny how much can happen in such a short space of time.

Haven't posted in a while, here is the update:
Faced rejection from girl, hated self more than usual. One of the good things about the fact that she said she didn't want to see me anymore, was that it really showed me who my friends are. When word got around we were no longer 'courting', my friends really stepped up and helped me out. I love my friends.
One of them, decided I needed to forget about everything, and so bought me a ticket to Bestival.
For anyone who doesn't know, Bestival is a music festival on the Isle of Wight. We were there for three or four days, there must've been about twenty of us give or take.

Now there's a girl, I've known her for years, and I've always thought she was gorgeous. She is the best friend of my best friend's girlfriend, if that makes sense. She's sort of popped up into my life every now and then, and I always sort of playfully flirted with her but never expected it to go anywhere. She was at Bestival. So I continued to flirt with zero expectations, and also didn't put too much effort into it because I hate having sex at festivals. So dirty.

But we kissed, and ended up spending most of the festival together.
We got back to London and nothing much changed. We spent a lot of time together. I forgot about everything else.

I even thought the first time we had sex would've had to mean something, with my developing feelings for her, but it was so natural it's like we'd been together for years.

We are together now. I asked her to be my girlfriend at 12:33am, the morning of Thursday the 27th of September.
And I've never been happier.

Feeling less and less inclined to update this now I don't have to document my self-hatred and depression, because both of them are pretty much gone.

For now anyway, let's see how this goes.