Haven't been posting because I've been so busy moving house and sorting out my finances and everything.
I've been seeing the girl for a few months now. She's perfect.

I just met her in town and we sat down to talk and she told me she doesn't want to see me anymore. I held it together perfectly with her. As soon as I left her I started crying. I sat in the middle of town on a bench and cried and had a few cigarettes. She was the only thing that made me happy and now I can't have her anymore. I am alone and sometimes if I think too much about it, I really want to kill myself.